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John,
I still haven’t yet received an E-mail from Larry. Anyway, you told me in your E-mail (and
you also told me this in person yesterday) to ask him if I can drink the milkshake in his car
without the lid on it. And again, I know that was only a joke but you know that anytime I would
go to Dairy Queen with Larry I would want to do it the same as when I go there with you... have
my milkshake there instead of taking it to go and then having it in his car, but now I’m not
sure about the idea of going with Larry to Dairy Queen after my friend Kris phoned us two
days ago (on Saturday) about an hour after I sent you my E-mail titled “A bit of
everything.” I haven’t talked to him since before Christmas. He asked me if you and I are
available to go see him when you’re with me on Sunday (the 29th). I told him I’d get back
to him. Dad and me are due to make a run to the fish stores (we’ll probably go to the ones along
Scott Road if we do decide to go) and before Kris called I had already planned to do the fish
run on Saturday. You know that I’d probably feel tired after spending the day doing a fish run
and I wouldn’t want to see Kris on the next afternoon, but also I don’t really want to see
either of my friends after all the fights that mom and me had when I wasn’t feeling well and
also because I don’t think it’s right that I’m still keeping in touch with them after my
relationship with Carol ended. She was the only person who I considered a family member. Can you
tell me how long it’s been since the last time when I talked to any of my own relatives or saw
them in person?
Our furnace is blowing dust around the house because its filter has never worked. Also, they
have ones out now that are up to 95$ efficient and the one that we have now is only 60%
efficient so my mom and dad are thinking that they might go to the “White Rock/South Surrey
Spring Home Show” that’s on this coming weekend. It’s at the “Centennial Park Arena” and that’s
just around the corner from us, but they could run into Carol if they go seeing how it will be
Sunday and you know that Sunday is the day that I want her to be spending with me. I also said
to you before that I don’t want to hear that my mom and dad ran into Carol out in public and
they didn’t go over there and say something. Even if she’s busy talking to someone else for
example, I want them to stay there and wait until she’s done no matter how long they end up
waiting to say something to her. I want them to explain to her that it was because of their
mistake (my mom and dad’s mistake) why her and my relationship ended or at least tell her
that I want her to start seeing me again and then not stop arguing with her until she agrees to
come back and work with me.
Now because I see Carol as a family member, I think that was one relationship that should
never had ended out of my friends combined with all of the other people who I know and have had
relationships with. That was just not the right relationship to end. When I think about it, I
think that Carol’s and my lives shouldn’t end without us having had a permanent long-term
relationship. Because I said that, it doesn’t mean that I still have thoughts about wanting to
live with her. And keep in mind that I think this is also unfair to Kris seeing how he’s also
been cut off from seeing her since her relationship with me ended. Remember it was through me
that Carol got to see Kris again after the same ten years that her and I didn’t see each other.
If she didn’t see me again after the ten years, then I wouldn’t have taken her to see Kris and
she probably wouldn’t have saw him again either. Also, I’m aware that it has almost been two
years since the last time when Carol and I had a relationship. Whenever I think about how
important this relationship was to me, I wish I could’ve done something much sooner to get it
back.
-Neil
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