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John,
I didn’t get up until 2:30PM today. Speaking about my sleep, I’ll let you know now that I
don’t like the idea about getting up and doing something else for ten minutes if I can’t fall
asleep after laying in bed for 20 minutes. Like what was said at the meeting, I don’t like to be
up when my mom and dad are in bed. I thought the idea about trying a different medication
sounded better right from the time when at the meeting it was suggested as an alternative to the
20 minute thing. And after all this talk about not sleeping, my mom didn’t get to sleep until
5AM on the night before last night.
Now even though Carol hasn’t worked with me for over a year as of this time, I’m never gunna
let her go. She’s all that I have for family and you know that we’ve had hardly any of our own
relatives inside our house since before Carol’s and my friendship ended in August of 2007. Some
of my relatives I haven’t even seen myself since before Carol’s and my friendship ended. Because
I no longer see the only person who I consider a family member, it kind of makes me feel like
maybe my dad should have a fight with some of his relatives and then he won’t get to see those
ones anymore. I want Carol to be a big part of my life. I don’t want to spend any amount of time
with a different worker that is longer than the two and a half years that Carol worked with me,
I want Carol to be the worker who I see the most of in my life. And it isn’t just a relative of
the realtor who Carol knows, Carol knows the realtor’s autistic
son. And it’s not just any house that this same realtor has up for
sale, it’s just that I don’t think it’s right he has a house for sale
in my neighbourhood while Carol is not seeing
me.
After I said two days ago (on Thursday) at my place that Chloe doesn’t usually come
out until the second immediately after you’re gone, I remember you said that you wonder why
because “she doesn’t want anything to do with that John guy.” I told you before that
this wasn’t the case with Carol, Chloe
would come out when Carol was here. And my mom said that she felt rejected at the time when
Chloe curled up and laid down in Carol’s lap because she never did the same thing in my mom’s
lap, Carol’s was the only lap that Chloe has ever curled up and laid in.
I remember when we talked about cars at the meeting, Dr. McKibbin said that he thought I
probably prefer sedans to hatchbacks. It is true that sedans are my preference even though
Carol’s car was a hatchback, the 2007 Yaris. I do miss riding in that car and I told you before
in one of my previous E-mails that I don’t want the next time I ride in
it to be the last time. And I hope that Carol would never want to buy
either a Volkswagen or a convertible speaking about Carol and vehicles, at least I know she
won’t be buying a convertible seeing how she told me about when she drove one once for a friend
and she didn’t want the top down because everyone could see her. My mom thinks that Carol
would’ve wanted to see the situation with Lorne to work out , but I disagree seeing how I told
Carol in person that I want to make it through my life without riding in a Volkswagen or a
convertible and also because Carol never said anything to me like what
my mom said about me having a lot of different workers throughout my life and that some of them
might have cars I don’t like.
I also remember that Dr. McKibbin asked me if I felt pushed to get my cousin, Jenny’s,
slideshow done or if I enjoyed myself while working on it. I guess I could say to be honest that
I did feel a little pushed seeing how we were kind of in a hurry to get it done for her in time
for she and her boyfriend, Danny’s, second anniversary. And at the meeting, you heard my dad ask
me if I stopped working on my grandparents’ home movies because of what happened last Christmas.
You know that I haven’t got back to work on them lately because of my sleep patterns, because I
didn’t have more than a couple hours of energy per day for the last month or two, etc. Also
because of those same reasons was why I didn’t continue work on Jenny’s slideshow sooner and why
I therefore ended up feeling rushed in the end to get it done. And you know that even after what
happened last Christmas I did work on a few things a few months later but then I stopped when
the Olanzapine was starting to affect me. Remember that I went out with my mom and dad last
summer to start looking for a new kitchen table and chair set and then once we got one I had
thought about eating my meals in the kitchen with my mom and dad again as well as also go back
to watching the news, but due to the same reasons that I detailed above was why we stopped going
out shopping for the table and chairs and I just didn’t feel like going out at that time.
And two days ago at the meeting, you asked me how many dog and cat images I would like to
have before I get a binder. I also remember you said to Lorne when we were talking about this
on the day he was with us (on Monday Nov.10,2008) that I haven’t gotten a binder yet. I
said in the E-mail I sent you on Saturday June 28,2008 that I’m looking
for a certain kind of binder that we’ve been having a hard time trying to find because it seems
to have gone out of style. Speaking about scanned images, my mom found
another cat image for us to scan on Monday if Larry doesn’t come.
Now the last time when we were cropping images, remember this error message kept popping up:
It also keeps popping up all of this last week whenever I’m on the computer and this didn’t
start happening until sometime around a week ago. Since then, this message could pop up at
anytime. I don’t know of an application called “Generic Host Process for Win32 Services” and
none of my programs close when I click “Don’t Send.” Nothing happens at all when I click “Don’t
Send.” And remember I said in the E-mail I sent you on Tuesday July 1,2008 that when on the
same computer (we’re talking about my desktop computer downstairs) whenever I click on my
desktop icon to launch Netscape either after computer has been restarted or after computer has
been left idle for a certain amount of time while turned on, Netscape takes a long time to start
the first time I click on the desktop icon and then once it finally does launch I get this error
message and Netscape has to close:
The next time I start Netscape after it closes, the same error message pops up again and then
keeps doing the same thing the next bunch of times I restart Netscape. Though after restarting
Netscape and getting the same message a bunch of times over and over, it eventually does start
normally (quicker) without popping up the message. I also said in the July 1st Email that
I already tried uninstalling and then reinstalling Netscape twice, I
also rebooted my computer after uninstalling and again after
reinstalling but the same thing still happens.
And I’m not sure if I like the idea about walking around the malls on rainy days. Also, I
don’t have any interest in looking up and trying to find an indoor track for us, I’d rather just
go for walks on the nice days.
My dad leaves tomorrow for Golden, and now he’ll be coming back on Monday instead of Tuesday
because there is only a couple hours of work to be done up there.
-Neil
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