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John,
I will write to you now about my thoughts after last
month’s meeting with FVMH. First I’ll correct you by letting you know that I
was awakened to the fact that I might
have to move out soon before that placement in Chimney Hill fell through. And I already was
aware that they’ve been trying to find a placement for me.
Now that we know the people at that place in Chimney
Hill could’ve stayed with me 24/7, Carol just has to say “yes” to being with me 24/7. She just
can’t let this happen to me and I can’t live with strangers, especially right now, after all of
the stomach problems that I’ve had.
Now, I know that Carol still has to work
her school job for another three years before she can retire with enough money to live on. Can’t
somebody (anybody) provide her with the income she’ll need to retire now, and
I still don’t see why one of Carol’s friends or family members can’t
stay with me when she wants to go out. If any of those such people
could stay with me, then I would not want to have the experience first being left alone at where
I live now. As far as I know, I don’t think that any of the other kids who Carol did
respite for get left home by themselves. I think that Carol should tell them that she’ll take me
just so they won’t continue looking for a placement for me, especially if the placement that
they find will be either in Langley or in North Surrey.
If you read over the E-mail I sent you on Wednesday
July the 16th, the point in which I brought up “the possibility about continuing to live where I
am now if I agree to let my mom and dad have a bit more freedom” wasn’t the point where I said
that I’m confused. I said that I’m confused because my mom and dad want me to have some
experience being by myself but when I was confining myself to the couch and didn’t feel safe
living where I am now, my mom would keep saying about how we now have better services for me and
good people working with us such as you and the FVMH team. By that, I thought what my mom was
saying was that “as of that time” we now had better people to work with the three of us
(both of my parents and myself) as a family. Around that same time, you yourself said this in
the message you sent me on Saturday
Feb.9,2008:
> ...I'm hoping the meeting with the FVMH will open a
pathway to healing some of the past events in your life. Especially
> with your family...
I remember you said at the meeting last month that you
don’t know how that applies when I said that my parents couldn’t accept from day one that Carol
and I had a friendship. I think my parents are also happy now that they know Carol is thinking
about me the way that I think she does. And I also remember my mom said at the meeting about how
even though I’m worried that Carol doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore I won’t have
anything to do with our own relatives. Maybe I should’ve reminded you in the E-mail that I sent
you before the last meeting about the fact that I like Carol more than
I like any of my own relatives.
And I don’t want to write a letter to Carol just to
have her either respond or contact me somehow and then never hear from her again. I also don’t
know what to write if we decide to write a letter to Carol. And Maybe I should’ve worded my
previous message this way:
> • I already knew before you
suggested this to me when you last saw me two
> days ago not to say in my letter, if I did decide to write to Carol, that I want
> to live with her. I already knew because you suggested that to
me once before not to.
Speaking about the relatives, my dad invited my
grandpa to come in tomorrow morning to help him bottle some wine and then my dad will take both
of my grandparents out to one of the casinos seeing how my grandpa’s birthday was
yesterday (on Thursday). Maybe another room that we could have downstairs besides a big
fish room for myself if we could afford to buy a second house could be a big wine cellar for my
dad so that they could go to the other house and not disturb me when they have to do wine stuff.
I was kind of hoping before that other thought (the one about having a wine cellar)
popped into my head that in addition to the fish area we could maybe have a big rec room down
there so that we could move over our treadmill and exercise bike so that we’ll have more room
upstairs at this house. And we could also move over there the old air hockey table that’s
currently in my dad’s workshop, or we could buy a much newer one if we still have money after
buying a second house. I heard that it was some car dealership in Ontario who won half of the
big $44 million two days ago on the 649, each of its employees get somewhere around $900
thousand. I think that $900 thousand would be more than enough to finish paying off this house,
buy a second house, and still have more money leftover.
I wish I could tell Carol your joke about why the fish
in my pond are so smart...Because you saw them swimming in schools.
I remember you asked me yesterday where the house is
that I want to live in if it’s in reverse, you asked me if it’s one of the ones on the other
side of 140th. It is on the corner of 18A Avenue and 136A Street, remember the address is 1838
136A Street. And remember that you already saw once before my plan that I did of how I want our
front yard to look, you saw it when I showed you my binder that I put together of future plans
for the house at which we live now.
Yesterday when my dad got home not long after you
left, he found two dead kuhli loaches in my upstairs fish tank, one of the two that I bought on
the evening before at the Big Al's store in Richmond and the one that I already had before I got
the two new ones. I now only have just one kuhli loach again.
After my mom looked around the new Wal-Mart yesterday,
she drove to the South Point Save-On and picked up a few groceries. She also got when she was at
Save-On a new snack to try called “KitKat Bites,” I had some today for my afternoon snack. My
mom saw when she was in the new Wal-Mart store that they don’t just have a McDonald's, this one
has a McDonald's and a Tim Hortons. I didn’t even know that this Wal-Mart was going to have a
Tim Hortons until yesterday when my mom told me, this one’s the first Wal-Mart I heard of that
has a Tim Hortons. My mom also saw that neither the McDonald's or the Tim Hortons in Wal-Mart
have any windows, so they’d both be dark places for me. Maybe one afternoon once the kids are
back in school you and I could drive to the new Wal-Mart and have our afternoon snack at one of
those places.
Maybe this Monday will be a good day for us to take
our video at Sunnyside Acres and then I’ll have had my Sony camera for two years. When I bought
the camera they told me that I can bring it in every year for the first three years for a free
cleaning and to have it checked over, I thought that it might be a better idea to take my camera
into the bush before I take it in to be cleaned and checked over. And this time
we’ll follow the Douglas-fir trail again for the whole walk and then
maybe the next time we could try taking the Moss trail. I don’t think
there will be too much of you and me in this video if any shots of us, I said in the previous
E-mail that you could walk behind me and carry my camera bag while I film. I’ll carry the camera
bag when we’re not filming. And if we take a short video of your “creek” first, then once we
download it maybe we could add a sound effect to it in which water is running. Speaking about
videos, I think that the picture you showed me yesterday of the Snowbirds that was in the paper
would’ve made a good title page for my video that my dad took of the Snowbirds and is now on
YouTube. My mom said that there are probably lots of pictures of the Snowbirds already on the net.
You can get the latest images that we’ve cropped at
http://www.stuntsillusion.com/download/tempfile1.zip
-Neil
P.S. My mom found the ping pong ball under the candle
just last night.
PS2. In Windows Paint, open the image of blue Elmo
that was in that last E-mail I sent you. Under the “Image menu,” choose “Invert Colours.” You
should get this result:
It’s orange Elmo.
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