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John,
I know that my dad left a message with Dianne for you two days ago (on Wednesday
evening) about canceling the next day, but did Dianne tell you about the other time my dad
phoned and you weren’t home? The time last Tuesday (on the 10th of this month) when my
dad called your home phone number after he found out that somebody at the ministry saw that I
have two workers and thought that I should only have one. And they renewed Larry’s contract with
me for six months.
When I first found out last Sunday that Larry’s contract with me had been cancelled after my
dad talked to him on the phone, I said to my mom and dad that if they don’t renew this contract
and if I’m cut off from Spectrum I hope that they won’t revisit our other plan (the one
about me moving out) only because of their (the ministry’s) mistake. And then only a
couple hours after I said that I realized that I don’t like the conditions that are in place at
where I live now for when I‘m sick. My mom wouldn’t stop putting up fights with me the whole
time I wasn’t well. I didn’t get as much rest as I should’ve because time that I could’ve spent
resting was wasted arguing and I’ve had a few lousy three hour sleeps. The fights were caused by
my mom either asking me questions that she already knows the answer to or starting to say
something to me and not finishing it. I’ve told my mom too many times not to start a sentence
that she doesn’t know how to finish but this never gets through seeing how she’ll still keep
doing it no matter how many times I tell her not to. I think that the reason why she doesn’t
complete sentences and why she asks me questions that she already knows the answers to might be
because she always opens her mouth every time something new pops into her head. She’ll
immediately say something instead of stopping first to analyze what just popped into her head or
to think about whether or not she has enough information yet about what just popped into her
head that she can let it out without being unable to complete sentences.
And when I explained to my mom that she still continues not to finish sentences after I told
her many times not to, she then responded by saying that she did finish the sentence. Why would
she answer me by saying that she finished the sentence if what I asked her wasn’t whether or not
she finished the sentence? She was right though to say that she finished the sentence because
she did finish the sentence...after I asked her three or four times to finish the sentence. She
might not’ve finished the sentence if I didn’t say anything after she started the sentence and
then stopped talking. And again, it doesn’t take me just one try to get her to finish her
sentence once she stops talking.
I might not’ve been sick for this long if mom and me didn’t keep having these fights and I
could’ve had you come here yesterday if I wasn’t sick for that long. I have an appointment at
Park Place (the welfare office on 72nd Avenue) on Tuesday afternoon about starting up my
benefits again. I think that having you come here on Sunday, Larry on Monday, and then having
this appointment on Tuesday afternoon would be too much for me right now. That’s three days in a
row. I don’t care if I have to miss out on this month’s and last month’s cheque only because mom
and me had been having fights. I don’t feel like starting my benefits right now after what’s
been happening, I won’t care if I’d never get paid again. I told you before that I don’t like
having to go to Park Place every year for a financial review and I won’t have to if I’m not on
disability.
And writing this E-mail really stressed me. This wouldn’t have been that big of an E-mail as
long as there hadn’t been any fights. I didn’t get as much rest as I should’ve also because I’ve
been worrying since the first fight about writing this message. Please don’t start a heavy
conversation on Sunday and don’t suggest the idea about revisiting the option of moving out
because I’m still not interested in moving out right now.
-Neil
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