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Before our appointment

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Wednesday July 16,2008

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Message: John, Wow, I really slept good both last night and the night before, especially the night before on which I pretty well slept through the night. Why can’t I sleep that good every night? Just before my dad stopped and talked to you as you were getting into your car two days ago, he stopped at the mailbox and talked to Darlene, our neighbour who lives across the street. She said that her husband, Gary, has recently finished his chemo but she didn’t think that he’ll have his strength back until September. And I can’t believe you didn’t recognize my dad’s car. I remember you being in our garage before, I thought maybe you would’ve seen it by now. And then my dad walked over after supper that same day (on Monday) to get our mail and on his way back from the mailbox he stopped and talked to Marjoree who was in her front yard next door. She said that there’s a jungle gym right outside Logan’s new apartment and that the kids tend to play there, so he gets a lot of noise. Marjoree also told my dad that Logan will get his driver’s license back in October which I told you he lost a few months ago. My dad doesn’t know why she told him that he’ll be getting his license back and he (my dad) always sees Logan’s car driving back and forth, we don’t know whether or not he’s still allowed to drive it to and from work. Here are some things that I want to make clear before we go into the meeting tomorrow. And there might be just a few things in here that I already said many times before, but I tried to make most of it sound different than what I said before: • I never said that I’m waiting for Carol to change, I just hope that she’ll do the right thing and change her mind about the way that she thinks about me. My mom just is not enthused about the idea of me writing to Carol. • I already knew before you said this to me when you last saw me two days ago not to say in my letter, if I did decide to write to Carol, that I want to live with her. I already knew because you told me once before not to. • I know that the relationship I had with Carol is “in the past” seeing how it was almost a year ago that it ended, but the reason why I’m not letting her go even though I eventually managed to let go of Maureen Linklater a long time ago is because the friendship that I had with Carol did not end the same way whereas Maureen decided on her own for whatever reason to stop sending me E-mails. Neither of my parents have shown me any proof that they too miss Carol, this is therefore why I have the feeling that they’re happy now that she’s not coming here anymore. I don’t think my mom could accept that Carol and I had a friendship from Day One. • Even if the altercation last August didn’t take place and Carol instead chose to end the relationship for another reason soon after, that wouldn’t sound fair to me because as far as I know she’ll always have Jennifer for as long as Carol’s able to look after her. And I don’t want Carol to live the rest of her life thinking about me the way she does after the relationship ended the way it did end. • One example you thought of why Carol might’ve made her own decision to end the relationship could’ve been because she might want to have her own life once she retires, especially if like my mom said that she eventually has any grandkids. And I’ll tell you that I would rather help Carol pick out a gift for any babies that her daughter, Krista, has instead of helping my parents pick out presents for any new babies that come into our family. And I know that sometimes the grandmas would rather buy clothes for the babies instead of toys, I’d be okay if Carol would rather buy clothes not that it really matters. • Carol not wanting to see me again feels the same to me like if either my grandma or one of my aunts were to not want to have anything more to do with me. • And if Carol did get married again and has a new husband right now, I want to know about it. I would’ve wanted her to share that with me and I also would’ve wanted for me to have discussed that with her if her and my relationship did continue. • When you were here two days ago, you said that I didn’t answer your question whether I think about Carol more or less now than I did just after our relationship ended almost a year ago. I thought I answered it in front of you in person when you were here last Thursday (on the 10th), I told you that I thought maybe I think of her a bit less now. And I know you said that I don’t have to answer this one, but I asked my mom if she has any opinion and she agreed with me. She too thinks that I think about her a bit less right now, and then she said that it’s mostly when I’m writing my E-mails complaining is when I’m thinking about her. • Also when we were talking two days ago before you left, remember my mom told you about the other thing that Serena told her on the phone last Friday morning (on the 11th)...That the placement they were looking at fell through meaning that I won’t be living at that place up in Chimney Hill. And I know that this doesn’t mean that they aren’t still trying to find a placement for me. • I don’t want to live either in Langley or North Surrey, I’d rather stay in South Surrey and I don’t want to have to go through this stuff about “moving out” without ANY support from Carol. • Remember my mom said about how I don’t want to move out right now because she knows that I got so many good things here such as my cats for one example. I’ll remind you myself that I also have new blinds coming for my bedroom. And speaking about my bedroom, remember I already told you a few times in previous E-mails about how my mom and dad let me have my bedroom exactly the way I wanted it with green walls etc. Why should I have to leave that so soon? • I also remember my mom said two days ago that I might be able to stay living where I am now for as long as she and my dad are able to look after me if I start to become more independent again, and if I agree to stay at home for short periods of time by myself so that they (my mom and dad) will be able to have a bit more time to come and go as they please. You told me yourself that you know no one’s gunna be with me 24/7 even if I do live somewhere else, so whether I continue to live where I am now or I go live somewhere else it sounds to me that I’m gunna get left alone either way. I can’t get my mom to explain to me about why they’re looking for a placement for me if I can let my parents have a bit more freedom as well as I get a bit of experience for myself by agreeing to be left alone at where I live right now. • I’m confused here, John, because my mom and dad say that they want me to have some experience living on my own before something happens to them so that I can be independent before that time does come. I remember during the time when I was confining myself to the couch and didn’t feel safe living where I am now, my mom would keep saying about how we now have better services for me and good people working with us such as you and the FVMH team. And around that same time, you yourself said this in the message you sent me on Saturday Feb.9,2008: > ...I'm hoping the meeting with the FVMH will open a pathway to healing some of the past events in your life. Especially > with your family... My mom took this book about autism out of the library just recently and even though it’s hard to understand she skimmed through it and told me about these parts that she read where it says that a gluten and casein free diet works for some people with autism who have digestive problems. They have to try and avoid milk and wheat products. She also read in the same book though that the gluten-free diet doesn’t work for everyone who has stomach problems related to autism. Points about meals and snacks: • Monday July 14,2008 - evening snack: My mom bought a big package of efruti brand FRUIT JUICE BERRIES earlier that day when she was at Costco, I had some of those. • Tuesday July 15,2008: For my dessert after lunch, I had the last two white Danish cookies and one of my grandma’s homemade raisin cookies that she sent home with my dad when he was out visiting her just a few weeks ago. Points about news stories: • My mom told me just within the last few days that if my cousin, Shelley, had waited two more months to have her baby, her baby could’ve been born at the new hospital in Abbotsford. I already saw on the news when I watched it a long time ago that they were going to build a new hospital for Abbotsford, my mom didn’t tell me until just a few days ago when she said this thing to me about Shelley having her baby that the new hospital will be open in just two months from now. • My mom had a smaller paper yesterday morning because of the power outage on the day before. And when my dad phoned home yesterday at lunch, he said that they were suppose to have a thing on at his work during the lunch hour on that day (yesterday) for employees who are getting close to retirement and to let them know what are their options. That was cancelled because of something to do with the power outage. And BTW, they never said anything about the Richmond or Coquitlam power outages on the TV news, they just talked about the Vancouver one. Could you believe the coincidence that both Richmond and Coquitlam would have a power outage on the exact same day and at the exact same time when Vancouver had a big power outage? • And my mom told me that she saw on today’s news some U.S. company, Lord & Taylor, has bought The Bay. She also said that most of the stores in Canada will still be called “The Bay.” A couple cat stories: • Sunday July 13,2008 - evening: While I was upstairs having my shower, my mom was in the front yard pulling weeds when all of a sudden she heard Izzy jump over the gate and then Izzy was in the front yard helping my mom. She was hiding in the bushes and having all sorts of fun • Sunday July 13,2008: Izzy disappeared outside early in the evening and she didn’t come back until when it was almost 11PM. We spent almost the last hour looking for her up until she came back. And then we finally find kitty and what does she do, give my dad a big scratch right in his knuckle. I uploaded some pics I took of more surprises that we found including the cat fuzz ball that you put in our Smoothies chocolate box: http://www.stuntsillusion.com/download/tempfile1.zip I thought that you weren’t going to make anymore surprises until my mom finds that one that has been hidden a while. And I also included in the same ZIP file, a picture of my cousin’s new baby, Marshall, that my grandma E-mailed to my dad last night. For some reason though my grandma labeled the pic “Kelowna bridge 2008 012.jpg .” I must say that the last two days (both today and yesterday) were a busy couple days for me, and I’ll let you know that I didn’t just spend the whole two days typing up my thoughts before the meeting to send to you. Here’s what else I’ve been doing: I scanned all of our Canadian dollar bills that we currently have on us and then my dad took pictures of all our Canadian coins using the up close “portrait feature” on his camera, and I cropped all around the coins myself (that was obviously on my own time) before I sent them off to that guy earlier in the afternoon today including a pic of the old Canadian $1 bill which was done away with in year 1987 and also a pic of the Canadian $2 bill. Do you remember any of those! You can take a look (you're also welcome to download all of these if you want to) at all of the pics I sent to him, they are in the ZIP file at http://www.stuntsillusion.com/download/tempfile5.zip And what did you think of BioGoogle, speaking about the same person? -I talked to Mac briefly this afternoon on the phone, I invited him to go fishing with my dad this Saturday morning. Mac will be leaving next Monday morning (on the 21st of this month) to go away camping with his brother. I myself won’t be going fishing with Mac and my dad, but I told Mac that he’s welcome to invite someone who he knows to go with them. And don’t forget about what I said in the first E-mail I sent you after our last meeting in Port Coquitlam, that we now know that we can follow Mary Hill Road to Pitt River Road all the way from Elgin Avenue after we leave instead of taking Wilson back out to Shaughnessy. Then I hope we don’t miss the turn into White Spot this time and end up going around the block again. You already know that I’ll be having the two-piece fish and chips with Sprite to drink, I’ll need you to cut my fish for me again and you can also pour the KETCHUP for me whenever I need more. If service is good for us, I’ll leave ten percent of my bill for a tip once we’re done eating. The last couple times when I ate at White Spot, I left $1.30 for a tip. And then I’ll need to spend a few minutes in the washroom before we leave White Spot. See you in Port Coquitlam at 10AM tomorrow. -Neil

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